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You know the story; Kansas; Dorothy is swept up by a tornado, up into the sky and ends up in the Land of Oz. The film breaks free from the monotone of black and white and shades of grey into the vibrant, visual effervescence of Technicolor; a magical hallucinogenic for the eyes of the audience.

Shudder is the spirit of that whirlwind.

I have the pleasure of sharing some of their thoughts and introducing them to you.

Welcome.

SHUDDER

Why do you write?

We write for the pure love of music. We write for the writers before us that have inspired us. We use our writing as a social tool. And, of course, we write to entertain. We love to share our feelings with the world... it's what makes us feel alive.

What process do you go through, to write a song? Do you start with melody and then add the structure, for example? Do you start with a lyric? Is it a joint effort? Is it a democracy or does that go out the window when someone is fucking about with your idea?

We usually begin with a guitar riff, and then add lyrics. Occasionally, we'll have some lyrics we write music around, but that's a bit more rare. Dustin usually starts the process with one of these two... from here the evolution and structure of the song and all its' parts are left to the Shudder Democracy.

Which of your songs is your favourite?

Well, it changes very regularly. Currently, most members are enjoying "In Case of Fire" the most.

Which musical heroes and why?

Dustin and Wurm agreed on The Beatles, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Radiohead, Beck, Ben Folds, and Kurt Cobain... Why? Radiohead and Beck carved new paths. Their originality has expanded rock and progressed rock and even music in general in wonderful new directions.

Ben Folds because of his genius at songwriting. The remaining three because they established the keys to good rock songwriting: Variety, Atmosphere, and Dynamics.

Mark mentioned The Beatles, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, and Primus. Primus, for the sheer inventiveness and using talented musicianship without fitting any moulds.

Eric listed Ben Folds because of his incredible songwriting ability and his talents at the drums and piano. “Ben Folds makes me want to play piano...” says Eric. Eric also mentioned Nobuo Uematsu - composer of the Final Fantasy game series music, for his truly marvellous composition.

Just as you can tell the character of a man by his enemies, I think you can tell the creative heart of a musician by his heroes. The first time I heard the SHUDDER song, ‘Penguin’ (right click to hear; pick open in new window to listen while you read). I was struck by the amount of ideas that went into one song. When I see the list of dudes given by Shudder I understand why they can be so diverse in their outlook. What I can’t understand is how they put it all together into a coherent whole. It all seems so natural I think, why didn’t I think of that, but that, I have to confess, was just my ego rolling across the floor. These guys are the Wright Brothers of music. You remember the Wright Brothers; a couple of misfits who thought outside the box, who quietly made the world a more intimate place with their vision of flight; the moment they thought to themselves, ‘let’s put the wings on the outside of the plane and see what happens’ there was no stopping them; but as I say, how they can be so consistently original is a mystery to me. I asked them about this.
Do you ever get a creative block?

Yes.

If yes, how do you overcome it?

We usually just take time away from it, focus, and return to it later. For instance, if we’re writing a song and we aren’t feeling the direction it’s headed, we’ll work on another song until we get some more thoughts on the first one. We also try to listen to other music we love for inspiration in songwriting. Although, we stay true to our everlasting goal of writing songs that do not sound like any others.

Do you ever worry that the last thing you wrote would be the best thing you ever do, and the next song will be not as good?

There is always a feeling of question, about our worth and ability to make it further and be better. Of course, hindsight is 20/20. The feeling of hoping the ability is inside you and you didn’t just "get lucky" with a song or two. These feelings usually last until we write another song that we get a great reaction to, and then our confidence returns… for a while at least.


Do think there is a price to pay for your creativity?

Yes.

Can you describe it or give it a name?

We call it: “The Malaise” - the price of thinking creatively. When you fall in love with being creative, something lessens in the rest of your life that you have to deal with, because nothing quite compares to the feeling we get with art. Add to that the fear of sharing your very soul with the world and allowing them to judge you based on that.

How about other non-musical heroes?

Dustin lists Mark Twain, Kurt Vonnegut, Orson Welles, Stanley Kubrik, Arthur C. Clark, and George Orwell.

Wurm added Andy Kaufman.

Mark mentioned Orson Scott Card.

And Eric agrees with Andy Kaufman, but also listed Jim Henson and Bruce Lee.

We chose these individuals because their talent in their particular craft represents the way we would like to display our own art.

How have they influenced you?

These people were “movers and shakers”. They were en-visionaries. They were willing to go against the grain in new ways, establishing them as genius… in no time.

I’m convinced that SHUDDER is way ahead of the pack; just listen to ‘Ma Blues’. From the first beat on the toms, and where the softly strummed beautifully dry guitar nudges in, accompanied by its big brother the bass, to where the chorus launches itself exuberantly into the expectant void they’ve built up from the start…it’s a work of joy and genius. The vocal rips up from the belly of the vocalist and the music just smashes through the window. It’s a jailbreak of epic proportions. Each listen wipes my palette clean and I want more.

And yet they look so calm. Who would guess looking at it, the depth and range of the emotion that crackles and vibrates when they plug in tune up and let loose and fire up the machine. With such a confident sound, sometimes gentle and then passionate I wondered if they ever got stage fright with such faith in what they do.

Do you get, or have you ever had, stage fright?

Yes, on a regular basis. Though, it's something we’ve learned to deal with it as it comes. We have learned to hide it well.

How do you overcome nerves, or do you just have to live with it?

We just live with it and learn from it.

Have you performed live much?

We perform fairly regularly, especially now. There are up times and down times of course. Sometimes, we spend a lot of months recording, which takes away from our time to perform. We’ve performed around 30 – 40 times in the last 5 years.

Can you tell us something about the best gig you ever played?

Yes. We won the Battle of the Bands at The Setlist, a venue in Warrensburg, Missouri , in 2003. After the build of rounds, the band got more and more confident and felt, by the end of the competition, that we had perfected our live show. That night 300+ people voted for us to win. As an honourable mention, our performance at the 2003 Kansas City Spiritfest was awesome. It had such a great atmosphere, and we performed alongside another stage of major label artists.

How about the worst gig?

We got arranged with a "field party” to perform at. It seemed like a good idea at the time, but by the end of the night we realized "the crowd" was a bit inebriated, but unfortunately, it was too late. Fights broke out, police showed up.... bad news all around. We kept playing right on through the mayhem until we got kicked out.

One evening at a local bar here, the band drank a bit too much ourselves, and played poorly. Also, when we first started as a band, we played a couple of church gigs. These were our first shows and we had no idea what we were doing. It was… bad.

Bad belongs to th
e old days, late in the 90’s, in Raytown, Missouri . It’s reassuring to know SHUDDER didn’t just come out of the box sounding good. Blood, sweat, toil and tears ought to be part of the backbone of such a band. It ought to be interwoven into their tendons and ligaments because something this good can’t come easily.

Shudder was formed in 1995 in the basement of a church by singer-songwriter, Dustin Blakeman, and bassist Wurm. The band changed and grew and broke up and was hammered and nurtured by those two founding members until nine years later, Dustin and Wurm stood alongside brothers Mark and Eric Johnson. I’m not going to cheat you here and give you a line or two of the story, because it belongs in a book. SHUDDER learned their craft in Kansas and just like Dorothy they seem to have landed in a place somewhere over the musical rainbow. They left the baggage of genre behind them, in Kansas where they evolved and landed in Warrensburg, Missouri . It was an epic journey to where they are now, musically, but that story, as I say deserves a book. On the other hand, if it were a film…


If your life were a film, what would it be called?

“Drugs and Videogames”

Who would play you guys?

Dan Akroyd, Jude Law, Ed Norton, and Dave Foley

(note: Geetan would obviously be played by Denzil Washington as the talented but chronically underfunded songwriter who, has been working undercover as a small duck in Nebraska)

How would it end?

Most likely with drugs… and videogames

If there were a talking donkey, which one of you would it be, or perhaps somebody you are all familiar with?

Jeremiah Sherman, a good friend and roomie.

What’s happening for you now, in your musical endeavours?

Currently, we’re just finishing our newest Demo/EP, “A Demonstration of Something”. We plan to release that this month, and push it to everyone we possibly can. During that time, we are booking more shows than we have in the past, including working hard on getting out of town dates and small tours booked across the country. Of course, we are always writing new music as we have the time.

Would you describe yourselves as tortured artists?

"Tortured" seems a strong word. We accept our position in life and live it as passionately as we can, enjoying the music we make along the way. Although, it is very hard at times to feel so strongly about something like music, when you live in the world we do. It’s sometimes hard not to let the fact that our success in this business, at times, is a matter of chance, get you down.

Do you think other people describe you as this?

No. To our friends and fans, we are very easy-going and positive.

Speaking of torture, this brings me to the matter of Boy Bands and the repackaged regurgitated hormone sodden pre-pubescent fuckology of aftershave soaked designer music squeezed out of the ample buttocks of the music industry at large.

Forgive my bile.

What do you think about manufactured bands like the ‘Backstreet Boys’ or ‘Take That’? You may not have heard of 'Take That’, as they were English. Hopefully you were spared the horror, the musical blitz of regurgitated pap for pre-pubescent girls, which shot up the English charts like a scalded cat up a cactus. My ears still bleed at the thought of them.

It’s terrible. Just awful. We have no problem with the style of music. If you can sing, then sing. It’s just the consumer makeup, sex, ass, tight clothes, makeup, sex, white teeth, sex... the garbage that comes along with it. I’d be happy to see a “boy band” video of just the guys sitting in a basement singing together or something. Also, these types of bands don’t generally write any of their own music, which we never much respected.

If, as essentials to the maintenance of life, food, air, water, shelter, warmth and companionship were free, but everything else above and beyond that was to be paid for in someway, would music be free to the people or is it a non essential luxury?

That’s a tough question. For us, personally, there’s no question. Music is essential. There is not a day that goes by that we don’t have music in our life in some manner. We do know that not everyone has that same passion. It’s a bit of the “dreamer vs. builder” mentality. However, we don’t think music should be about making money. For example, if Shudder were to become very successful, and make more money than we do with our day jobs for making the music we love, the very last thing we’d be concerned with was how many people were downloading our music for free on the internet. Because, frankly, from where we sit today, any new ears listening… we consider success.

What is the apparent music scene, meaning the MTV, highly polished plastic music a symptom of in America ?


Instant gratification. It’s blatantly and obviously… money over music. Corporate greed has ruined the process of music so badly that we are literally in need of a music revival or revolution. We’re of the opinion that intelligence in music will prevail in coming years in the same way that rebellion prevailed in the punk rock era.

Would you say with musicians, most express their individuality by trying to be somebody else?

Yes. For the most part, that is the case. However, some use their influences wisely and creatively to expand music… to evolve it.

How much part do you think the media plays in how the majority of America thinks? Surely after all the things that have turned out to be lies, it should be taken for granted that TV is political and commercial slight of hand.

We agree wholeheartedly that the media plays a massive role in how the majority of America thinks. We understand that it’s happening and we understand why. Many others here in America do too. But, when it comes down to it… it’s up to each individual to think for themselves and not let the media “brainwash” them. It’s sad, but that is not often achieved. We believe most musicians have a better grasp of this happening and can at least try and help by creating art to “wake people up”. In American citizen’s defence, it’s harder than you would think, when you were raised in this environment, to make a hard decision that the things you hear just aren’t right; especially, when generations before you have fallen for it. We plan to keep making art for these reasons until people realize what’s going on and get fed up with it.

There is so much musical noise thrown at people from adverts to elevators to cars to malls; do you think it dulls the musical appetite so much that the mass has to be spoon-fed musical pap?

Yes. We are, at times, bombarded with music. Mostly, the music becomes parodies of music we’d like to hear. Fortunately, people (if they choose to) can easily tell the difference between truly inspiring music and garbage thrown at them. We have faith in music lovers’, if we can only get the business on our side.

Would the world be a better place with less music? If it were like sex, as in an individual chemistry thing between consenting adults, but not something you should be doing in the middle of a mall while people were choosing what colour toilet roll they wanted, would this be better than the barrage of boy and girl band clones we endure now?


While we wouldn’t say music is quite as personal as sex, we do believe that it has been significantly downplayed in our society. It has lost a lot of its’ original appeal as “art” and become so obviously about money. But, honestly, maybe aside from 12 year old girls, there aren’t a lot of people that aren’t willing to admit boy and girl band clones are not doing their part creatively. Unfortunately, that doesn’t always stop them from listening to it.

I’ve been waiting for this interview with SHUDDER for sooooo long, but it’s been worth the wait to get it off my chest. And I know at points, during this I’ve been foaming at the mouth and evangelic on their behalf in a very heavy way but fuck it. I nail my colours to the mast here and say I love this band and what they do. If there is any justice, and the jury is out on that one, they should be walking down streets paved with the shiny eyed cocaine addict executives of the record companies, begging SHUDDER to give them a chance. Give them just one chance to redeem themselves after all the boy bands and puerile pap that has been foisted upon the public. Just one chance to eradicate some of the bad Karma of bad music by lifting Shudder up to the MTV generation and letting them see what musical freedom sounds like.

But okay. The sermon is over. Now just so you don’t think I can’t lighten up I asked SHUDDER some other questions at random. You see, Geetan can be as relaxed as SHUDDER if he tries; hard; and drinks a little whiskey.


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Have you got a publishing deal?

No.

Recording deal?

Unfortunately, no

Do you believe in an after life?

Shudder believes strongly in an after-life.

Have you any thoughts on reincarnation?

It is a fascinating possibility, but if it did happen, you wouldn’t know it was happening.

Ever had, what you would think of as, a spiritual moment?

Yes. Each member has had moments in their life that we consider very spiritual, not just musically.

Are you friends with anybody famous?

Unfortunately not

Are you American, or are you a citizen of the world?

We are proud of our country. We feel that America has some very right things going on in some aspects, and has done a lot for the world in the past. We know we don’t always have all of the right answers, but we refuse to jump on the “ America sucks” bandwagon.

However, when it comes to us as individuals and as musicians, we are citizens of the world. We have love for all types of people and want our music to connect us all in loving ways.

What advice have you got for other songwriters?

BE ORIGINAL! Break the fucking mould!

There are ways to be creative and still entertaining to a large audience. Find the magic spot between new, interesting, creative… and catchy, entertaining, accessible.

Just stop copying others! Use music you love as inspiration.

Are you optimistic about the future of America ?

Yes. We are an optimistic people. Minds change. At one point, it was commonplace to own a man as a slave… to beat him when he disobeyed… force him into a life of sorrow for our own benefit. It seems just insane to us now, doesn’t it? It takes time, but enough of the right voices slowly but surely will begin to make changes for the better. And if things get really out of hand, we have confidence in the American peoples’ ability to fight for what’s right… even if that means fighting our own government. And in the end, the “American Machine” cannot survive without its’ consumers.

It’s an MTV type question, but if each of you was President, and you could instigate one law for the good of the people (before you got assassinated) what would it be?

Dustin --- Education comes BEFORE defence.

Mark --- Subsidize the arts and education and penalize entertainment. Reward the right people and transcend ignorance.

Wurm --- I’d rather open the minds of the new members of our government to correctly evolve and weed out existing laws rather than create new ones.

Eric --- Legalize Marijuana and tax it. Use the money for the right things. Make realistic decisions about law based on the world we live in TODAY and not the United States of the past.


And there you have it with one last thing. Where does the name SHUDDER come from? Let me show you a quote from their website.

"Art is on the side of the oppressed. Think before you shudder at the simplistic dictum and its' heretical definition of the freedom of art. For if art is freedom of the spirit, how can it exist within the oppressors?"

Nadine Gordimer
(South African novelist and short-story writer, 1991 Nobel Prize for Literature, b.1923)


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The last scene of the Wizard of Oz, the scene you never saw, is Dorothy, and the Tin man, and the Cowardly Lion and the Scarecrow stopping to get the fuck out of the way as Eric and Dustin and Wurm and Mark head toward the rehearsal room. They’ve seen Oz, and figured out the Wizard, and now they are bringing Oz to the people.

Dustin, Wurm, Eric and Mark, it's been a pleasure.

Geetan

Click the poster to visit SHUDDER